dan...
Kesedihan itu belum hilang.
Masih di dalam hati. Terkunci rapat.
Sakit, sangat. Pedih, sangat.
I don't know how long it'll stay. It hurts me so bad. I can't even hold my tears. It fall from my eyes, without my permission.
I can't stop thinking about this. Whenever, wherever I am. Even when I do something I like.
People always say "Keep looking forward. Forget yesteday. Don't ever look back. Bublabublabubla.."
Hei, it's not that easy!!!!
What if you lose a chance that really mean to you? What if you lose something that only happen once in your lifetime?
Can you keep your words? I bet you're gonna change your mind.
Yes I'm jealous. So what?
I'm jealous bcz they're having fun on there, and me? Just crying all day long. So, unfair.
You know, this problem makes me crazy. I almost hate one of my friends. Kinda sucks, but that's just I feel. I feel like, she's not good for me. She's an evil.
I wish I won't hate her.
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Udah 3 hari lebih.
Sekarang mereka lagi di puncak. Lagi seneng-seneng, bercanda satu sama lain dan lalala...without me.
I wish I could turn back time, dan rubah semuanya.
Gue harap gue ga minat ikut program ini. Gue harap, gue ga niat dan ngarep banget sama program ini. Gue berharap banget.
Emang gak mungkin sih.
Jujur gue masih ngarep banget sama SMA itu. Masihhhhhh banget. Gue mau di urutan terakhir sekalipun asal gue bisa masuk situ. At least bisa ikut tes nya deh. Gue pengen banget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gue nangis, gue berdoa supaya ada kesempatan kedua. Walaupun itu rasanya gak mungkin, tapi gue tetep berdoa....
Skrg, gue ngerasa beda.
Gue lebih ngebatin dari biasanya. Gue ga semangat lagi. Gue lebih sering dan gampang bgt ngeluarin air mata. Diluar emang gue senyam-senyum, cengengesan, ketawa-ketiwi kaya ga punya masalah. Tapi nih, di dalem sakiiiit bgt.
Keadaan ini, mungkin akan berlangsung lama. Maunya sih ga lama-lama, tapi apadaya. Sampe skrg aja rasanya masih sama. Sakitnya ga ngurang.
"You try so hard to make everyone happy. But in the end, you're the only one hurting." -Annonymous
Masih di dalam hati. Terkunci rapat.
Sakit, sangat. Pedih, sangat.
I don't know how long it'll stay. It hurts me so bad. I can't even hold my tears. It fall from my eyes, without my permission.
I can't stop thinking about this. Whenever, wherever I am. Even when I do something I like.
People always say "Keep looking forward. Forget yesteday. Don't ever look back. Bublabublabubla.."
Hei, it's not that easy!!!!
What if you lose a chance that really mean to you? What if you lose something that only happen once in your lifetime?
Can you keep your words? I bet you're gonna change your mind.
Yes I'm jealous. So what?
I'm jealous bcz they're having fun on there, and me? Just crying all day long. So, unfair.
You know, this problem makes me crazy. I almost hate one of my friends. Kinda sucks, but that's just I feel. I feel like, she's not good for me. She's an evil.
I wish I won't hate her.
----
Udah 3 hari lebih.
Sekarang mereka lagi di puncak. Lagi seneng-seneng, bercanda satu sama lain dan lalala...without me.
I wish I could turn back time, dan rubah semuanya.
Gue harap gue ga minat ikut program ini. Gue harap, gue ga niat dan ngarep banget sama program ini. Gue berharap banget.
Emang gak mungkin sih.
Jujur gue masih ngarep banget sama SMA itu. Masihhhhhh banget. Gue mau di urutan terakhir sekalipun asal gue bisa masuk situ. At least bisa ikut tes nya deh. Gue pengen banget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gue nangis, gue berdoa supaya ada kesempatan kedua. Walaupun itu rasanya gak mungkin, tapi gue tetep berdoa....
Skrg, gue ngerasa beda.
Gue lebih ngebatin dari biasanya. Gue ga semangat lagi. Gue lebih sering dan gampang bgt ngeluarin air mata. Diluar emang gue senyam-senyum, cengengesan, ketawa-ketiwi kaya ga punya masalah. Tapi nih, di dalem sakiiiit bgt.
Keadaan ini, mungkin akan berlangsung lama. Maunya sih ga lama-lama, tapi apadaya. Sampe skrg aja rasanya masih sama. Sakitnya ga ngurang.
"You try so hard to make everyone happy. But in the end, you're the only one hurting." -Annonymous
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