unexplainedfeelingssssssshit

it sucks. when you think that you just love someone as your Idol, but then….you just realize that you love him not as an Idol. I mean….ugh, hard to describe it.

AND THEN…..

you realize something (again). 

You-are-too-far-from-HIM.

You dream about him twice a week. dream of something that will never happen. You try to wake up, but it’s hard- hard to face the truth that you will never be with him….

You promise to yourself, you’ll wake up…..someday. as you try to wake up, the feeling get more bigger-bigger-and-bigger. and it wanna stay in your heart, forever.

time goes on, things change, you too. You keep trying to wake up. until……….you think you brave enough to say goodbye.

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BUT YEAH, until I write this post, “You” still don’t want to face the truth, and not brave to say goodbye.....

p.s: I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKIN' ABOUUUUT. thanks

Hany