Last day of 2012

So I watched The Daylight Project by Maroon 5 this morning. And that video, I dont know why... Reminds me of my Father. I searched the other 'father' videos. And those are.. freakin sad. They talk about how their fathers died. Usually because of a disease. And how they miss them so much. I cried so hard. I believe you wont see my face while crying like that. I remember the video of a man, he's a vlogger. He's kinda old, maybe 30-something. He was crying while he told us. I can see the pain. Yea...

From that, I realize how a father means to his child. And I realize that, the feeling when you lose someone, is really aching. It hurts. So bad. No matter how old you are, what gender you are, how stubborn you are, or how tough you are... You'll cry when you lose someone, right?

And I hate it.......
I really can't help it when someone asks about my dad.. Or when I have to talk about my dad to keep the conversation going. It's not that I hate my dad or else. It's just.... When I talk about him, I can't help but miss him. It hurts...

I cant stand girls out there who's crying because of their boyfriend. Those girls who spend more time with their boyfriend or friends. Or girls who tweet about how they love their boyfie so much. Why don't they hangout with their family when they have time? At least talk to them. Not just laying down in their bedroom all day texting or surf the internet. Hey, you should know. My mom only gets holiday when sunday or a national holiday. She leaves home at 6a.m and come back at 8 or 9 p.m. I want to build up a conversation when she's home from work but I cant. I know shes tired and I dont want to disturb her. You should be grateful, your mom is home all day. It's horrible if you don't pay a single attention to her. People please get back to your sense. I hope everybody who read this will realize and understand what I mean.

You really dont know how I wish I can spend my holiday with my dad. It's okay if we're just staying at home at least I can laying in my dad's arm or watching tv together. I wish he's with me now.... And I wish I could hug him. And tell him about my life recently. But sadly I can't.

People, I hope you dont get tired with my posts about how i miss my dad. I'm sure there will be more bcs everytime I miss him... I kinda want to write something. Hehe.

Bye! Always love your parents!